Contradiction

So I've always known I'm a walking contradiction but yesterday a co-worker told me "Dude... You are suffering a severe identity crisis... Drive a big redneck truck, listen to Punk, shave your head, dress like a skate kid... What's your deal?" HAHAHHAAAAAAA! I love it! I'm a great big walking contradiction. I can't be "souped" as I call it, classified like a soup can.

I like to think I'm a pretty laid back guy, pretty slow to anger usually, takes a lot to work me up but every once in a while, like ever 3-4 months I get this itch to go to a good punk show or somethin and get blitzed and smash people. The itch hit me last night. I don't know why but it hits me and it won't go away till I walk out of the pit with blood on my shirt, be it mine or someone elses. Lol. Until that happens it seems like im always just walkin around trying to find a fight. I can't explain why I get this urge but I do, something about it reminds me I'm still alive. NOTHING reminds you you are still alive like getting an elbow to the sternum... Or delivering one. That's why I love the punk shows, it's understood you will get your ass kicked but you leave all being friendly towards each other.

I'm trying to find info about going back to EMT school and getting My EMT-Intermediate liscence but the UNM EMS website is a pain to navigate as is the CNM one. I'm bored being an EMT-B, I want to stick people with needles lol. Broaden my skillset a little, get to play a little more on calls. Meh. Couldn't do it now if I wanted to anyway.

Out.